About Carol - (more than you could ever want to know)
Several years ago I produced a small
book called "Come Be Crazy With Me". For a cover image, I drew
this picture of a hawk to have that "I dare you" look
I study and participate with many belief systems and spiritual paths. Tantra, Buddhism, Christianity, Native American teachings, psychology, philosophy, and world religions are among my pursuits and interest.
As I explore deeper studies of physics, quantum mechanics, dark matter and dark energy, multiple dimensions, nonlocality and alternate methods evolving consciousness, my hopes include the concept that spirit and science can merge.
Dear
fellow travelers,
As
I observe the changes taking place all around me, I step more into the observer
self. I do not work less diligently than when I was more public. I have been permitted to
work quietly, in my own
personal space.
There
are those of you who tell me I have touched your life in some significant way,
I give thanks to all that is sacred for being allowed to participate in life
with you.
All
things I share with you are my personal knowings, experiences, and truths. All have
been validated through my own heart connection with my understanding of the
divine force.
I continue to implore
you to measure
everything I say, everything you hear, everything you read, and all that
appears before you through your own truth heart. Believe nothing presented to
you through external sources until you know it through your deepest spiritual
self.
Trust
your personal connection with the divine to guide you on your earthly and
spiritual path.
I
invite you to communicate with me. If you agree or disagree, tell me. If you
have any questions, ask. I will attempt to help you find your own answers to
fit your life.
Love,
Light, and Beauty
Carol WhiteWater Dawn
Interest:
My interest are varied and multifaceted.
I travel the country in my small motor home. I read, camp, do Native American
beadwork, and watch TV when I have reception. I also
have explored weaving, basketry, pottery ... and all the arts. Before I became a
psychology/counseling major I was one class short of a degree in art. I love
learning and pursue new knowledge with a passion. My interests and studies have
become focused in the areas of physics, history, world religions and beliefs around the world. Meditation and
pursuit of expanded awareness techniques and skills is my interest and my
compulsion.
Native American beliefs and philosophies have been a primary study for many years - since the early 80's. Recently Buddhist studies, especially Tantra is my major study. I love my Native American traditions no less than before but have found that Tantric techniques have opened even newer doors to ever more interesting realms.
Education:
I received a BA degree in Psychology and a MA in counseling from the University of Texas, Permian Basin. I also have taken a number of classes in Native American Studies at Dine' College where I taught for 14 years. My coursework included Navajo philosophy, Navajo Holistic Healing, Basket Making, and Navajo Weaving.
Work History:
I
was an Instructor of the Psychology and Chemical Dependency at Diné College from
1991 through 1994. I have
lived in many places and still own a house in Texas but the beautiful land of
the Navajo people remains
my heart home. My students taught me, my colleagues taught me, and the land
continues to teach me. The photo at the left is an overhead shot of the campus.
The design reflects the teaching of the medicine wheel, the cycles of life, the hogan, and the ceremonial
basket.
For thirteen years before I came to the
reservation, I worked in mental health counseling and 
had
a private practice in Odessa,
Texas. This was a satisfying and comfortable time of my life. The last two years
of my life in Texas I worked as creator and director of a program for perpetrators of domestic
violence (batterer's). It was called Project ADAM and was established as a
result of recognition by the Permian Basin Center For Battered
Women and Their Children that the perpetrators ans well as the victims must
receive treated. The program remains strong and productive. It has won national
recognition as one of the best in the nation. One year before my private
practice, and just after after receiving my BA in Psychology I worked as a
juvenile probation officer.
Carol and some of the children
.
My mother is alive and well, living in Texas. My Father is
deceased. I have two birth sisters and three sisters of choice, three in Texas
and two in New Mexico. Cliff (my former husband) and I had four children during
our 28 year marriage, two are boys and two are two girls. They range in age from
35 to 45 and live in California,
Nevada, New Mexico and Texas. There are MANY grandchildren ages 9 to 26. My
former husband still lives in Texas and is now my best friend. He and the
"lady of his life" were my primary caretakers when
I was unable to work and had to take sick leave. Our relationship reflects
the personal growth each and all of us have done over the years. I have been single
since 1988 and have become very comfortable with that status. I can't imagine it
being otherwise but I remain open to all options.
Some of My Teachings and Teachers:
All
the individuals I have already mentioned are my teachers. My three chosen
sisters are among the greatest teachers. Thank you dear sisters; Lynne,
Susan, and Pamela.
Elizabeth (Beth) Hin is a mystic and extraordinary teacher of mine ... and teacher of many others including my three sisters pictured above.
Venerable Lama Karma Dorji is resident lama at Kagyu Shenpen Kunchab
Darma Center in Santa Fe, New Mexico. He gave me refuge and my first
empowerment.
Matt Striekers, A white man and medicine man who worked in Lubbock Texas for a time was one of the individuals who introduced me to the basics of shamanism.
Gray Eagle and Gentle Earth Mother, South teaching lodge - Seneca
Lakota people - Arvile Looking Horse, the Chips Family, and others through writings and personal meetings.
Navajo people - After living here
since 1991, there are simply too many to
name all of them. Nevy Jenson had an especially profound influence on me.
Spirit Eagle came into my life long before I came to the reservation. A young
man named Phil, who spends much time in the canyon and knows this land well, has
touched my life deeply as has a Navajo man
who Walks in Beauty and also walks with my wolf Lady Gray Wolf. The Native
American Church (peyoteism), Navajo colleagues at the college, my Navajo
students and many others have had strong influences on my life and my
beliefs..
Late evening view from my back
door
Waterfall at the end of Tsaile Lake
The Hopi people and land are connected with me in ways that I can only begin to perceive. Some deep influences have come from Thomas Benyakya, Grandfather David Monongya, Grandfather Dan Evehema, and the mesa tip called Walpi.
Walpi
Harley Swiftdeer
Bearheart
The Council of Elderhearts from this realm and the councils of other worlds and realms
My brothers and sisters of Planet Earth
Lady Gray Wolf, The teacher wolves, Redtail Hawk, Bear, and other animal teachers.
Personal Path and Philosophy: As I began my path, I wrote this declaration about who I am and where I am going. It continues to hold true for me. I can't always live up to my own highest expectations, but I keep them before me as my guiding light. When I am tempted to forget, it helps me remember who I am, what I am doing here and where I am going. It is an exercise in self awareness and purpose of life. I encourage everyone, especially those exploring a thoughtful path to do something that expresses their own highest expectations..
Declaration
I choose to change my nature and my
being;
This one-pointed, linear thrust is no
longer sufficient.
I embrace everything. I contain
everything in full consciousness.
It is not to acquire extraordinary
power, it is actual transformation I seek.
I undertake movement impeccably and
fearlessly, with unbending intent,
In focused surrender, and with no
attachment to outcome.
Everyone experiences pain, suffering
is choice.
I choose freedom from suffering.
True knowledge is attained beyond
thought. It is what I am.
It is what I become. It is Conscious
Being.
I contain and know the divine.
All
teaching is revealing.
All becoming is an unfolding.
It is not enough to experience a tiny
point of cosmic consciousness
Then return to ordinary reality. I must carry the cosmic within me.
I must
walk fully in consciousness in the midst of the ordinary.
I must bring all I know and
experience to this temporal realm.
For the highest good of all
concerned.
For many years of my life have, I worked diligently, but unsuccessfully,
to be "normal". In my surface life, I had a few people fooled. But,
inside my deepest inner knowing, I knew that I would never "belong"
or "fit" that "normal" world. Finally, I gave up and began
to learn to, Remember Who I Am - And Why I Am
Here On this Planet. Then, I began to fully accept that, "Who and
Why". I began to learn to accept me as I am in my core soul.
Remember the Question, "How can you tell a mystic from a
schizophrenic? The mystic knows who not to tell." I am learning to tell
all and tell it to anyone who will listen - perhaps that makes me a
schizophrenic. Or perhaps I am opening a new path for others who also,
"don't fit the norm".
For several years I have jokingly said, "of course I'm crazy - and don't fix me - I like it." One of my small books is titled, "Come Be Crazy With Me." If this is crazy, it is the best of the best. "Please God don't ever make me normal."
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